Seeing God Winks in Uncertain Times
After spending time with educator friends over these last two weeks, my heart began being heavy and burdened in ways that evoked fear and anxiety within my spirit. These are the most uncertain times I’ve ever witnessed for public schools and those who passionately lay it all on the line each and every day. When I awoke this morning, greeted by the beautiful picture of the ocean across from my bed, I found myself thinking I just need to sell everything and move to the beach to become a bartender. I laugh out loud as I type this since I know absolutely nothing about mixing drinks, but I am a really good listener. Through my grief journey, I’ve learned when I want to run to the beach, it’s likely I’m going through hard things and not enjoying the pain at all.
As I drank my morning coffee and zoned out on the couch, I had that paralyzing sinking feeling I’ve become all to familiar with over these last 10 months. I wrestled with doubt, fear, and pain for a bit, and then remembered how loving the Lord has been as he brought me through the most intense pain and darkest time of my entire life. He’s here for it! I just need to see Him at work in it. Within seconds, my You Version devotional reminder dinged on my phone. I started a plan last week, but I only finished 1 out of 5 days. Day 2 was exactly the little morsel I needed to be reminded of in this “Certainty in Times of Uncertainty” devotional.
“When people are fearful, they will turn on the news. They want to either be comforted or informed on that which they are afraid of. Yet, too often do we take the word of man for fact. We read and listen and assume that whatever has been written or told to us is real, never thinking the sources we are checking may also be misinformed. “
“The only truth that we know is Jesus Christ died for our sins. The only truth that we know has been fact-checked, cited, and sourced, is that God will be there from the start to the finish. For the open and the close. He is the author and the editor, and his word is final. There is nothing to sensationalize. There is no truth which God has not yet uncovered.”
Today, I am grateful our Abba Father gently reminded me my plans may fail, but he is with me and his plans will be carried out in me. “Peace I leave with you; my peace I give you. I do not give to you as the world gives. Do not let your hearts be troubled and do not be afraid.” John 14:27
My beautiful educator friends, parents, and students, always remember; “You are loved and of great value!” The important work you do matters…. even in the hardest, darkest, and uncertain times. Today, I am grateful to have experienced this truth in my hardest, darkest, loneliest days; “When anxiety was great within me, your consolation brought me joy.” Psalms 94:19